Have you ever felt like your entire life is just cascading out of control? And for some reason anything you do to get that control back just seems to make it worse? For this whole year that's how I have been feeling, and now more and more things are happening in my life that just make me want to let it all go. I just want to be with everyone I love again...be in a place where there is no more pain. Even hurting myself has stopped working...I've gone numb. There is no point to this place...no good on this earth. The only thing to do now is sit back and hope that tomorrow will bring the end of it all. Tomorrow will be your chance to finally leave and be happy. I just don't understand it anymore. It used to all be sunshine and butterflies before this year...and now you look around and it hits you. Look at how many are gone. Look at how many are struggling and suffering. I can't help but wonder: What is the whole point to all of this? If there is a plan, is it to wipe out existence or just make everyone that is stuck here feel like shit?